Favors Through the Phone

I’m hungry
I don’t
want to write
Sometimes
I just feel
so uptight
I need to make
some scary calls:
That makes me
put up
mile-high walls.
I cannot stop
I will not rest
Until I pass this
Character test
Of screwing courage to the post
Punch the numbers coast to coast
Say the thing I need to say
Get in get out without delay
I put it off
I really do
I write this silly
Poem for “you”
Don’t even know who you “whos” are
That read these bad poems from afar
Cannot believe you’re out there, No!
The trick is
“you” I need not know
I think I do
But I do not
You readers have your own life plot
And I have these two calls to make
I put them off,
Slink like a snake
Through my worry’s forest floor
Refuse to open up the door
That settles me and makes it fine
To talk to others on the line
Especially when I have to seek
Some answers
with no prefaced
peek
At what they might
or might not
be
I’d rather just lie here with tea
But that an option it is not
Others wait for what I’ve got
Ability to be the one
To connect
When
life’s undone
To ease their worry
(more than mine)
That’s why I need to stop this whine
Take a few deep breaths for me
A few more grounding sips of tea
And then just take my phone in hand
Stretch my inner holy land
So that the fear will let me be
It can’t be
as hard
as it seems
To ask a favor:
one
or two
I mean reversed, I’d surely do
This thing in short time if I could
And if not
I know
that I would
Offer tendrils,
follow-up
With i-deas
that would
fill right up
This void I hope to perhaps fill
Ok this is enough and shrill
The voices in me say “you’re done”
No one will read this
It’s too long
And what’s the point except that you
Have put off what you have to do
I’m “hanging up” here yes I am
I’ll now have courage in my hand
To make those calls
To seek resource
Remember we all
Share the force
Of love and mercy
Calm those fears!
It's helped that you're out there
You dears!